Sex & Marriage

Now how many of you, and be honest now, have turned your husband down for sex. Not because you weren't interested, but because you were have femine discomfort. It is really bad when you really want sex, but know that if you have it, you will feel worse later.

I swear my husband just knows when I am having one of those days, but wants sex anyway. I try to be gentle and say that I am really not in the mood right now. When he is just really persistant about it, I want to scream. So I have to come right out and say I am hurting. Then he feels bad for being so persistant. I feel bad for turning him down, and we kind of walk around each other for a while. Oh well, it gets back to normal pretty quickly.

Then it is another oh...say 3-4 days at the least and up to a week before we have the chance and energy to have sex again. That is the problem with us we have different schedules. I stay home with KK and he gets up at 4 and goes to work. I love him for all the hard work he does, but he just does not leave any energy for sex. We would like to have another child also, but can't every be horny and have energy at the same time.

Hopefully soon we will have more time and energy together. I want another baby.

I have a boyfriend!!!!!!

I have finally informed my ilustrius husband that yes I do have a boyfriend. Hubby has met boyfriend so it is not a suprize that I acknowledge that is what he is. Now I don't think Hubby understands really what I mean by loving both men. I also have a girlfriend. I am just one of those people who would do really well with a line marriage. I already have the first two co spouses. Unfortunately they are not married to each other. Hopefully in the next two weeks my boyfriend will beable to come see me. I can't wait for KK to go to sleep so that we can all just have an orgy. Just the thought of it is making me wet.

I love my husband and cannot see myself without him, but I can see the addition of others. Not as just a casual thing but as a second spouse. I just don't think hubby could really see another person as a real permanent thing. Oh well, I was a bit jealous at first that he was really interested in other women. Now I can see another man and woman in our house hold and in our bed.

Open relationship

Barak and I have an open relationship, in that we both like to look at girls and I can look at men if I want. However when it comes to sex, the only time I would consider having sex with out him is with my girlfriend. I can chat with other men online, but they only make me want to ravage my hubby when he gets home. I do like to look at other men, and women, but any sexual pleasure will have to include my husband.

Now I know a lot of you are asking yourselves why. Here is my answer... Barak gets up very early in the morning when it is still dark and at the least chilly, and goes to work. He works very hard so that I can stay home and care for our daughter. He then comes home and works even harder to make extra money so that we can have things we want. Now should I be selfish and deny him the one thing that shows how much I appreciate him? I think not! I so enjoy have sex with my husband, and he knows just where to touch and lick and tug, and many other things. Why deny myself that kind of satisfaction?

Thoughts

What women does not like to look at a buff male body. What is nice is when you can look at a buff male body and still want to have sex with your husband instead of the buff guy. Personally I don't think another man could satisfy me sexually as well as my husband. So I look at the buff guys and then go ravage my husband. He doesn't mind, and reaps the benefit. Now if every man was that open minded. Oh well, I just have the best one. Of course I am suppose to be that prejudice. Now girls would your husband before you were married spend the time to make you a cedar chest? For my birthday the year we were married he made me a cedar chest. He also made me hard wood wooden hair sticks. I wear some wooden ear rings he made, and barrettes. He is very handy around the house, and works himself to the bone durning the week to provide for me and our daughter. Then he works himself to exhaustion on the weekends to make extra money for us. Who could ask for a better husband? That is one reason I have no interest in getting sex from some one else. Why deprive my husband of that wonderful show of affection and appreciation?

masturbation

Now that title should say it all right??!! We all do it. Some of us learned about it in childhood. Self discovery is always fun. There are some that didn't know about it until they were in their late teens early 20's. Now how many of us would be shocked to learn that women use to make an appointment with their doctor to use a vibrator. Yes, it was a medical practice for many years. Now think about that for a minute really think about that. Use your own mother as an example of that. Ok her is the senerio... Your mom is dialing her doctor's phone number. She is setting up an appointment to have another man give her an orgasm. Insurance companies use to pay for this kind of thing. I think they catagorized them as "stress relief" appointments.

The funny thing is it was against the law to sell vibrators to private citizens. It was considered preverse. What is preverse is making a child so self conscious about her sexuality, not to mention her body that when she is married she still thinks giving her husband a blow job is pornographic. How can that be pornographic? It is between husband and wife right. I still have times when I think I am doing something "dirty" hee hee (blush).

Growing up I would get punished for masturbating. Now my daughter has through self-discovery figured out that masturbation feels good. Now I have finally through several therapists figured out that masturbation is a normal thing. I am sure to tell my daughter that I am not upset she is do it, just that it is something to be done in her room alone. She has figured out that many different objects can help in the rubbing of her vaginal area. What is bad is when she is outside and masturbating. I live in what is know as the Bible Belt of Texas. I also live in a small very religious town. The kind where there are more chruches than street signs. You have seen those kinds of towns. I swear in every building that does not have a store in it, or that a store has just vacated, becomes a church. So having my 4 year old masturbate out in the front yard could at the least get me investigated by CPS, and at worst get me arrested. Ain't that a bitch

The journey starts

Hi all who are reading this. I am obviously new here, but it is good to know you like to meet new people. I hope I am interesting enough. I will put general things up until I get to know you and then we will see what you can learn about me then. Hope each and everone is having a wonderful year, and may what ever god you worship bless you always.